Dont Give Away My Love~~~

I found this picture to be sadistically cute. Found it while blog hoping.



An awesome piano cover of Justin Timberlake My Love. Watch it people.

I shall not blog about my day today because it involves excessive ranting and bitching. Which is something that I try to avoid doing on this blog.

~Life's a bitch. And life's got lots of sisters.~

Lol?~~~

Im suppose to be studying for my LAN exam tomorrow. Instead here I am. Blogging another meaningless post.

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Ok I've spent 15 minutes trying to think of a meaningful (however meaningful my blog can probably get) and I cant come up with shits. I could have spent the last 15 minutes studying but instead I end up wif an empty head. Emptier than be4 at least.

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Crystal said something to me today;

"FFS. We all change. Its just a matter whether its for better or for worse. Look at J.D, back then, he was a real ass. The one that you really want to kick whenever he bends over. Now he's like all nice and goofy and macho wannabe and manage to score the hottest girl around; Me."

Conversation like these often reminds me on why I love this girl so much. No I do not have a crush or a secret love affair with her. The word "love" have been incredibly overused by me lately.

Niwae thinking back, I realise I did change. Theres this part of my life where I really screw up one of my best friend ends up ignoring me for the rest of our schooling year. Thats when I realise I cannot go on living my life with this attitude. And I took that slow and painful process of trying to be a better man. And well, I am what I am now.

Whether people realise this or not really doesnt matter. I change for my own sake. Not them. Self realisation. I suppose not many people can do that.

And whether I am a better man or not, thats for you to decide. You dont like me? Then tell me why. I'll do my best to fixed that part of me (of course only if the problem is concerning my attitude or the way I treat you. If you dun like me cuz of my looks or my race or my religion then its really you that needs fixing.).

Do I think I've change for the better? Honestly, I think I have. Looking at my life now, I really have not much to complain as oppose to last time. I have friends which I consider as true friends. I have less things to worry about these days. Less emo moments. So life's been doing pretty well for me.

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I suppose this is as meaningful as I can get.

Blog to express not to impress eh Mae?

~If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it. ~Mary Engelbreit~

I will survive~~~

Not sure whats the first song but the second one is Michael Jackson- Smooth Criminal


Hip Hop + Violin = Awesome. Im not sure wat song he plays but somewhere in the middle theres Gnarls Barkley - Crazy


Igudesman & Joo "A Little Nightmare Music" - I Will Survive
Ohh here's a funny comment;
sourmelk:whats that thing he uses to play the violin/piano?
lohb: Hands?

So as you can probably tell I'm having a little fetish or violin/viola at the moment. Awesome instrument. Doubt I'll ever have the time to learn it.

~When will I learn? The answer to life's problems aren't at the bottom of a bottle, they're on TV! - Homer Simpson~

Just fuck

Fuck. I never remembered myself being this angry my entire life. I can't believe the thing that my mum said. Its not the first time me and my mum argued with each other. But this time I really felt that she crossed the line. Every time I argue with my mum I always tell myself that we both are right and wrong. Whenever she say stuff like 'I'll throw your playstation away' or 'I'll break your guitar' I try to understand her the best I could. Shes angry. Its natural for anyone who's angry to say things like that. But tonight, what she said really shocked me. I never remembered myself being this angry in my entire life.

'I'll throw your mice out'

Fuck when she said that I was stunned. I can't believe what she said. Throw away my guitar. Fine, even though I paid for that guitar with my own money. Throw away my playstation. Fine. Get rid of my computer. Fine.

But throwing my mice out?

What have my mice ever done to her? I took them into this house because they need a place to stay. My parents complained about the smell. Fine I offered to keep them in my room. Food, cleaning and pretty much everything to do with the mice I took care off. I clean their cage. Fed them.

They did nothing to her.

And now she threaten to throw them out. Just because I refuse to put my note in a fucking file. She threatens to kill 2 harmless mouse. Just because I refuse to put my note in a fucking file.

Fuck it. She wont kill them just because I dun agree with her. I wont let her kill them. She'll have to kill me first.

Simple Pleasure's of Life~~~

I'll be going to Bali tomorrow and I'll be gone for about a week. So dun expect me to come on9 for the whole week.

Smack That~~~

OK so the most awkward thing happen just now. It was 1.30 in the morning. 0130 hour. I was alone in my room. Wide awake. Listening to my Ipod innocently (Not sure how innocent you can get if yur listening to B.E.P~ My Humps). I was rather high. Yes I get really high from excessive coffee. And of course when yur high, you want to do something. Be it spamming on MSN, making late night phone call non-stop (sorry Crystal) or just dance alone in yur room (you would dance too if you had 12 cup of Nescafe). And guess what? Right after My Humps finish playing, Akon~ Smack That started playing. So... as some of you might guess it (give yurself an internet cookie) I started dancing. And how else do you dance to Smack That? Go figure. But as I was lost in my own world, (syiok sendiri some might say) my mum suddenly burst into my room. And well we have an awkward moment of silence in between.

My rant: Cant my mum ever knock on the door before she enters my room? And wtf she doing awake at 1 am???

Honestly if you've manage to read all of the crap I wrote above, you've earned my respect.

And 2 very cool vids I found:




Peace out bitches~~~

Another random post.

~Why is there a freaking kangaroo on yur head? ~ Melisa~

Professor Satchafunkilus And The Musterion Of Rock~~~

Its 12.43 am in the morning. Thats 0043 hour in the 24 hour system. The song Pink Floyd's Wish You Were Here is playing in my ipod. My guitar lay innocently on my bed beside me. Stephen King's Pet Sematary and Carrie sat (lay? lie? rest? Pardon my english) on my desk beside my keyboard. One word to describe my feeling; Lonely. Or emo. Whichever you might prefer.

I just pissed off a friend of mine. Not entirely my fault. And being in a pissy mood I am, I pissed off another friend of mine. Entirely my fault. I suppose "leave me alone fuckhead" is not a good reply to "yur free tomorrow?". So to whoever I had this conversation with (I know you check my blog) I am sincerely sorry.

Samantha just flew back to U.K tonight. Ying Si will fly off soon enough. Hope you gals have a safe flight. And I realise I din really see much of you ppl when yur back =( Do take care. And see you in 3 months (?).

On a completely random note, I think Avril Lavigne is turning to be one of the biggest sellout I know. What happen to the girl who refuses to dye her hair? To the girl that win fans all over the world just with her Anti-pop, I-Dont-Wanna-Be-Girly attitude?
Dun believe me? Check out her latest single music video.


Avril Lavigne- The Best Damn Thing

~I'm normally not a praying man, but if you're up there, please save me Superman. ~

You think its over but its just begun~~~

The greatest most sadistic love story ever told.

Posted with permission from Jade.

~You had my heart, at least for the most part~