No Happy Ending~~~

Ok lah I'm too terribly lazy to blog out about the whole thing. And yes I din bother taking any picture at all. Even the one I did are taken by my camera phone which would translate to crappy picture quality. The most I could say is that this year sri kl prom is a shitload better then the last.

Im dead tired eventhough I did nothing thats suppose to wear me out. I'm sitting in empty house home alone. Yes yes I'm bloody emo at the moment.

~This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.~

Relax~~~

Anyone who have a decent taste in music should watch these video =)

Ohh and Mika's awesome.

Niwae I've been vid hopping in YouTube. There's this dude on YouTube who left a negative comment on a video with the most horrible English I've ever seen. I don't usually comment on other peoples spelling and grammar considering that mine isn't that great. But this guy spelling and grammar is horrible to the point of digging your eye out, so I left him a comment on it. And guess what? He actually replied me by sending me a message on my YouTube channel. Heres the message he left me:

*Click on picture for clearer view

AncI jOO wOnder Y I cOmMented ONN his Enqqlish.

P.S Anyone who sees the youtube video being slightly cut out of frame is because you're using Internet Explorer. Its your fault really because Internet Explorer sucks balls to the max. Use Firefox =)

~Its as if I'm scared. Its as if I'm terrified. Are you scared?~

Carbon Anniversary~~~

Wishing all the Muslims around the world a Happy Raya Aidiladha (not sure if its spelled as Aidiladha or Aidil Adha. Yes I'm that screwed up).

I was at my grandparents house the past few days. Twas boring I suppose. Not much to be done there though I brought my Nintendo DS. So I was pretty much lazing around with my DS the whole day and my mum was sorta annoyed by it. And she said something that made me go WTF?

"Ya know, you've been playing that thing for the whole day. Why don't you spend your time more wisely and go watch your grandfather sacrifice the bull" (In B.M of course)

Wtf??? So according to her watching bulls getting slaughtered is a better time spend then playing games?

I don't get my parents sometimes -__-

~I don't have to sell my heart. It's yours for free~

You Caught Me Off Guard~~~

Really dont have much to blog these days. Except that even after my As exam ended I still have to attend 2 weeks of college. And then theres test that the lecturer gives. Which IMO a pain in the bloody ass.

I mean cmon who the fuck would want to do test right after a major exams??? I mean I can understand if the lecturer would like to continue with the teaching but to force us to come to college using test as an excuse is lame.

Oh and my high school prom is coming up and I'd be wearing the same suit that I wore during graduation and last year's prom. Yeahhhhh I'm not that excited about that fact really. I tried talking to my dad about it and he said he never even had a suit in my age. I mean cmon the suit I'm wearing is not even mine. ITS HIS!! I honestly woud like to get my own one at least -__-

I'm in need of so many things atm. I need a new speaker for my computer because my current speaker is sounding like crap now. I need a new headphone because my current one is only working on one side (happens to all my headphone for some reason). I need a new graphic card because my old one got burned (don't ask me how that happen as I honestly don't know). And lastly I need a new guitar strings, because my current one is getting rusty =.=
And you can't call me spoilt because I only get the stuff that I want every now and then. I guess that makes me..... normal? Hey Christmas and my birthday is coming soon, so is that excuse enough to get me those things?? =)

Get me those things and I shall shower you with my love.

Yes, I know that sounds wrong. And yes, it was written on purpose.

And lastly, I finally decided to put up a C.Box on my blog. So help yourself and spam away.

P.S WHERE THE FUCK IS MY TACHOS?????

~If the next two words out of your mouth aren't "See Ya," then the third word will be "Oh My God, My Crotch, You've Punched Me In The Crotch!! - Dr. Cox, Scrubs~

Lost Faith~~~

I would have write a whole essay on it. But considering my last few post have been nothing but rant I'll try to keep it as short as possible.

But I would like to make a few point clear.

There are certain part of my life that I keep to my self. There are certain things in my life I do not share with just anyone. Not my parents, not my friends, AND NOT EVEN YOU. So dun act as though you know everything about me. Just because I take you as my best friend does not gives you the right to think you know everything about me.

You think you know everything about me? You think you're all that?

I've treated you with respect. Whenever you asked for my help I would be more than glad to help you out.

All these years I've always notice what type of person you are. What type of attitude you have. And believe me when I say that the friends you think you have, are mostly fakes. Most of them threw shits at you behind your back. Despite all these things they did and say about you, I remain your friend. I might not stand your attitude sometimes, but I remain as a true friend. Despite your obvious flaws I always try to see the better part of you. I CALLED YOU MY BEST FRIEND FOR FUCK SAKE. And I honestly could not believe of those shit you said about me.

I don't know if you'll end up reading this and I don't care. Because just like many of your other friends, I'll just "act" in front of you now. I honestly couldn't care less about you anymore.

Never blind~~~

I'm tired, frustrated, and fucking annoyed.

When I specifically tell you not to hold my word against me, DON'T FUCKING DO IT.

I'm not the type of person who's blind to his own mistake. I'm more aware to my own mistake than you think. I don't need anyone to fucking rub it in my face.

Everyday, these past few days ends in shit.

And the few people that could cheer me up are never around.




I need you. Badly.

Fuck this~~~

You come to me asking BEGGING for my help. And yet you acted as though I played
no part in it. You acted as though you did everything on your own. And I'm annoyed as hell because of that. I wasted abysmal amount of time and effort for you and you throw shit in my face? At least now I know what type of person you are.

Garh fuck this I'm not gonna bitch about it in my blog.

I'm sick of being the nice guy.

Maths~~~

FUCKING STATS!!!!!!!!!!

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind~~~

I'm bored. I'm lonely. And not too mention I'm feeling extremely crappy.

Bless Mae for actually replying my message.

Sigh. Useless post no?

~This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.~

Edit: I've no idea why but I posted this at 2 in the morning but its only shown now.

food....~~~

Im starving........................................

Futility~~~

I spent an absurd amount of time arguing with a bunch of friends today.

"Just cause we have no proof of something it, doesn't necessarily means it doesn't exist"

I have no idea why all of a sudden we decided to get all intellectual and started arguing about this. Most of the time we argued on simple stuff like;

"What items is best suited for --- hero? (DotA talk)"
or
"My bitch is hotter than yours (Ironically the majority of us hu argued in this topic are currently single. And after this argument I stopped wondering why.)"

Anyway, I argued strongly on it. I gave some strong point. Religion, politics, moral ethic all came out. I give facts that even if we have no logical proof whether Jesus is divine or just human, majority of the Christians still believe that he is the son of god.

And the reply I got?

"Jesus was an extraterrestrial"

"................................................................"

Futility- All those carefully worded arguments are falling on deaf ears

Idiots~~~

WARNING: The following post contains incredible amount of rant about a pure, grade-A, original moron who happen to be a friend of mine. Readers discretion is advised. Not for the faint hearted.

In order to protect that moron's identity, I shall refer to him as Wui Liang.

You see, a few days ago, this moron invited me and a couple of friends, for a few rounds of DotA followed by watching a movie in Sunway Pyramid. Considering the fact that I've not seen him for quite a while and the fact that I could use a stress reliever, I accepted his invitation. I've even messaged him about the fact that I'm gonna be late for the DotA game. Repeatedly I might add. The night be4 and in the morning of the promised day itself.

Getting permission from my parents is the hard part. My mum isnt very keen on letting me out. After a heated argument with my mum, she finally agreed to let out provided I finish my work and do a few chores at home. I agreed happily. I can handle a few chores, considering that Im going out for a couple of fun DotA game and watching a comedy (Don't Mess With The Zohan was the movie we plan to watch).

On the day itself, my parents were out. And its raining rather heavily. So I called a cab but the cab lady says that theres no cab available at the moment because of the rain. So I decided to call a cab driver who gave me his phone number a few months back (the private type of cab driver). However since the road nearby my house was going through repair work, the cab driver asked me to wait at the shoplot nearby. So I ran through the rain and manage to get into the cab.

Now heres the part that pisses me off the most. As I reached entered FTZ, I looked everywhere for that stupid face of his. Thinking that he was out for lunch, I decided to call him and ask where the hell he is. And heres the reply I got:

"Ehhh I thought the whole thing off d?"

..... I was speechless. He claim to have messaged me that the whole thing was canceled. So I decided to check my message. And guess what, the last message I received was from him which read:

"Hey fan serious when u can play tomorrow? Can play in the afternoon or not?"

My english isnt that great so somebody have to explain to me. Which part of that sms implies that he canceled the plan?

I havent felt so pissed in a very long time. I argued wif my mum, I ran thru the rain, I was freezing in the cab only to find out that the plan was canceled. Nvm that I was in a public area, I just shouted over the phone "FUCK YOU, YOU FUCKING IDIOT. WHY THE FUCK DIDNT YOU FUKING TELL ME? YOU KNOW WHAT I HAD TO GO THROUGH TO GET HERE? FUCK YOU". And I swear thats the first time I hang up a phone out of rage.

Oh the best part is what he said before I hang up:

"I thought I implied that the whole thing was off?"

WTF DO I LOOK LIKE A FREAKING MIND READER TO YOU??? EVEN IF I WAS A FUCKING MIND READER, YOU WOULDNT EVEN HAVE BRAINS FOR ME TO READ!!!

Waste of my fucking money and time.

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Edit: Im sorry for posting such angry post. Its just that his sheer stupidity really pissed me off today and I need a place to express. And yes I do know that he reads my blog. And I'm not and never will be sorry for posting such post.

Heart Burst Into Fire~~~

How I wished I'd gone to the MTV Asia Award.

God damn it if she had told me about it earlier id be there in matter of seconds. Not only me but maybe Ying Si and Elfie as well.

Well instead I sat in my grandparents house in Pahang, which is (I found this ironic I dont know why) only an hour away from the event, eating Durian and other fruits and fighting for dear life trying not to die from my bad cold.

Ever tried hard doing something and all you wanted is some small acknowledgment on what you've done but instead all you got is crap thrown in yur face? I seem to get that alot these days.

On a happier note, I've been invited into a DotA clan lol. Its still relatively new and havent even decided on a name yet. But its nice to know that someone wants you to be in their group lol.

Aih theres so much ranting and emo-ing I would like to put in this post but well I tried not to get this blog too be too personnel. Plus itll just bore you. Incase you havent notice im not that great with words. I can't write post the way, say, Iva does. Go read her blog if you want some great read =)

Miya's birthday soon. Still not sure what to get her.

Ohhh heres IMO the best JabbaWockeez performance ive seen so far =)

~I’m coming home,
I’ve been gone for far too long.
Do you remember me at all?
I’m leaving,
Have I fucked things up again?
I’m dreaming,
Too much time without you spent.~

F you, you F-in F~~~

I find it amusing and slightly irritated about how Mr. Chew (Sri-KL principle) actually read student's and ex-students blog and is "horrified with the language students used in their entries" (Quote taken from Elfie's Blog).

First let me tell you how I interpret a blog.

To me a blog is like a public diary. Ya know, like a diary where you pour your thought but instead of keeping it to yourself, you just display it to the whole world. And considering the fact that majority of the Sri-KL's student and ex-student are teenagers, OF COURSE YUR GONNA GET LOADS OF BLOODY VULGARITIES (Insert pissed off British accent).

An honestly bout the part where parents are complaining because they dont like what they see/read in their kids blog is a crapload of jokes if you ask me.

Lemme give them parents some advice:

Use your kids blog to get inside their head. Parents are always complaining that they dont understand us teenagers. Well we use our blogs to express our thought and feelings. So hey our blog is pretty much a big-book-of-crap-thats-in-our-head. So use it to understand us.

Of course expect to see huge amoung of crap in it.

Teenagers swear. Alot. Get over it. Give us opportunity to put our thoughts into words without any restrain, expect to see a truckload of swearing. And in my very honest opinion, perfectly normal. If a teenager doesnt swear, congrats, you've just give birth to either a saint/a very boring child/a reincarnation of Jesus.

Normally I really wouldnt give a crap about all this but considering the fact that most of the blogs I usually read are now privatised which annoys the hell out of me. Cmon you fucking open a blog for the public to read. Privatising a blog is like eating only the skin of an orange. You get the same nutrients (probably more) but pretty much lose out all the taste. And thus the post which includes a rather excessive ranting by me is born.

Well its not like people actually read my blog. Or give a rat piss on what I think.

Well in the spirit of vulgarities in blog I shall end my post with some of it =)

~Fuck You, You Fucking Fuck~

Dreaming With a Broken Heart~~~

Added some music to my blog =) Dun like the song? Then press the pause/stop button. These are some of my favourite all time songs. And I try to mix in different genre so because I know people have different taste in music =). But dun ever question my music taste.

I bought the Apple iPod In-Ear Headphones. Why? Because my old Seinheisster kinda spoiled. Only one side of the headphone is working. Pity. I really like that headphone. I especially love hanging it around my neck for posing convenient sake. But honestly the new headphone I bought.... sucks real badly.


Honestly, I tried fitting this thing in my ear and it hurts my ear. And since your stuffing all the sound you expect some realy good bass quality right? Well no. I cant hear a single bass note. Not the bass from the bass guitar or even the bass from the drum! And I swear I can barely hear the bass (the top 4 strings) from the electric or acoustic guitar. Unless I press it in my ears real hard and that hurts. Haih I regret buying this thing. I love my old seinheisster =(

On another note.... DALE IS MISSING!!!!!!!!!!!! OMGWTFCCBBBQ.
For those who din know Dale is the name of one of my mice. I really dunno how it went missing. The cage was close. No sign of struggle. Everything is fine. But he's missing.... Fuck man. My dad says we should get a new one so that Chip (the other mice) wont be alone.

Most of my friends that flew off are coming back soon =) Even Grace is coming back end of this year. Come home safe people.

To Samantha and Ying Si and Wui Liang (Yes stupid I've not forgotten you), lets hang out once you guys get back =)

~When you're dreaming with a broken heart, Waking up is the hardest part~

F u~~~

I dun ever remember myself been this pissed off and still keep it bottled up in me. Honestly back then when I'm pissed till this point it usually ends up with me releasing it one way or another (i.e Screaming at someone's face; hitting someone on the head with whatever solid object that my hand could reach). I amaze myself with the fact that I just kept quite throughout the whole thing.

Honestly its incredible how insensitive some people could be. Do they ever think for once that the choice of words they use which they might find amusing would stir up so much hate in another person? What they think I'm some kind of fucking robot who doesn't feel shit? I'm generally a patient guy. I can take jokes. But I have my fucking limits.

Fuck it. I'm just gonna end my post here. I realise its a rather pointless and ranting post. I just need some place to channel my anger to.

I really hate to hate. If that make sense to you.

P.S. To J.D & Crystal thank you for listening to all the crap that came out of my mouth today. And for picking me up.

Dont Give Away My Love~~~

I found this picture to be sadistically cute. Found it while blog hoping.



An awesome piano cover of Justin Timberlake My Love. Watch it people.

I shall not blog about my day today because it involves excessive ranting and bitching. Which is something that I try to avoid doing on this blog.

~Life's a bitch. And life's got lots of sisters.~

Just fuck

Fuck. I never remembered myself being this angry my entire life. I can't believe the thing that my mum said. Its not the first time me and my mum argued with each other. But this time I really felt that she crossed the line. Every time I argue with my mum I always tell myself that we both are right and wrong. Whenever she say stuff like 'I'll throw your playstation away' or 'I'll break your guitar' I try to understand her the best I could. Shes angry. Its natural for anyone who's angry to say things like that. But tonight, what she said really shocked me. I never remembered myself being this angry in my entire life.

'I'll throw your mice out'

Fuck when she said that I was stunned. I can't believe what she said. Throw away my guitar. Fine, even though I paid for that guitar with my own money. Throw away my playstation. Fine. Get rid of my computer. Fine.

But throwing my mice out?

What have my mice ever done to her? I took them into this house because they need a place to stay. My parents complained about the smell. Fine I offered to keep them in my room. Food, cleaning and pretty much everything to do with the mice I took care off. I clean their cage. Fed them.

They did nothing to her.

And now she threaten to throw them out. Just because I refuse to put my note in a fucking file. She threatens to kill 2 harmless mouse. Just because I refuse to put my note in a fucking file.

Fuck it. She wont kill them just because I dun agree with her. I wont let her kill them. She'll have to kill me first.

Day Of The Racist~~~

Ignore the title. It has nothing to do with me (or anyone else) being a racist. Its just an inside joke.

I'll be posting about the sunburst festival this Thursday (cuz its holiday and I cant transfer pictures from my phone to my computer because my phones getting really retarded).

I got bloody F.Maths and Physics test tomorrow. Gonna screw up for sure. Dedicated the whole night doing F. Maths until my brain cant take it and played guitar instead.Can finally play Classical Gas (Eric Clapton) properly (by properly I meant played the whole thing at a rather decent speed and few mistakes). Next song to work on.... Canon in D major. Or should I try memories D'amour first? Hmmmm so I ended up playing more classical now than I used to. All because bloody mainstream music now requires me to have an electric guitar. (and I'm terribly lazy to acoustify songs. Even if I were to do that it'll just be some simple major chords progression. Boring.) I want to start playing some real guitar solo =(

Now how the fuck did my rant on test turns ends up being a rant about guitar?

~It’s not easy to juggle a pregnant wife and a troubled child, but somehow I managed to squeeze in eight hours of TV a day. - Homer Simpson~

She told me to move on but apparently she herself haven't done the same....